When did I lose myself?

I have posted this song “All I want”. In that there’s this verse “I love you some… I love you when I forget about me”.

Why is it that some things are like this? Why is it that to be able to fully dedicate to something you have to give up on something else? Why can’t there be a balance? Why can’t I find a balance…when was it that I lost myself from me?

I have a feeling that the few last months I have lost myself, in the most complete way. And even worse, the little bits I find – here and there – they do not make me happy… It is like I have had a crash and spread myself all around… the good bits they went somewhere I can’t seem to be able to find, but the bad bits of me they keep flashing in front of my eyes… other people find them and present them back to me… and all this makes me wonder… where are all the other bits? Where is the fun? Where is the charisma? Where is the good will? Where is the smile, the joke, the song, the dance, the caring… where is me???

And this made me realized: I put so much effort in forgetting about him, that I ended up forgetting about me and worst, loosing myself from me. Gotta find my way back.... but maybe when after finishing this lovelly PhD of mine!

Mind over Matter

One day I was looking for buying a card to a friend's b-day and saw this card that said "Age is just a mind over matter, if you don't mind it doesn't matter" and now that my b-day is approaching I can't help but to think about it... and I realized that I don't really mind my age but I actually think that some people do! And this makes me wonder why is it if this is not their age but mine...

But anyways, so far so good, 20 days to go and still all "astral hell" crisis are under total control!